Meaningful moments
I just got off a coaching call with this woman who is building a website to generate passive income... LITTLE did I know it was to support a single mom with three kids whose Dad died at the tender age of 36.
I'm 36.
I'm a single mom.
All of a sudden I fell in love with this woman. She is this family's angel. Why had she not told me before WHY she was building the website?
This helped me solidify why I do what I do. I love to coach. I love women. I believe relationships thrive and families flourish when we take the time to savor, feel, cherish moments. To me this is as good as it gets.
You see, I got pregnant the week after my mom died. All at once I was angry, sad and elated. My marriage was rocky and we were renovating the house. I gave birth on my side, clinging to my girlfriend, my back to my husband. He quit his job the next day. I lost it. I would cry and scream hysterically then put on a happy face with friends. I was sleep deprived, overwhelmed and had lost all faith. One day I looked into my newborn eyes and felt like a failure. He looked back with unconditional love, as if to remind me that deep inside there was a joyful peaceful mom to inspire him. That day I stopped living the lie. I ended my marriage.
Single motherhood triggered many fears and I battled old victim patterns. I had trouble finding my sanity let alone 36 minutes for a pedicure. No one taught me that I am a precious ecosystem that needs nurturing. No one taught me to feel feelings but not be a drama queen. No one taught me how to surrender and trust my intuition, spirit, angels guiding my every move. Slowly I began to re discover my girl friends, my fashion, my faith, my dreams. I forgave myself and made amends with the father. I began to feel sensual and I trusted the universe again. I felt beautiful again, but from the inside out. Now I dance on the coffee table with my son. Now I have energy to be ravished by my man. Now I don’t feel competition with other women because I love myself for exactly who I am right now. Now I have the honor of coaching other women to savor life. Glorious sensual LIFE!
All my love, Alana